This blog has not been personal for me for quite a while now… it’s basically turned into a shrine to psychopaths and cupcakes. Perfect.
But there have been times, usually when I am really down, when I want to write… I need to journal and I want to share my thoughts. Last night I was driving home from my Mom’s house… a 3 hour drive to San Diego… and I did a lot of thinking. And I wish I had pulled over to write it down, or made a voice memo. I felt such a sense of clarity about my life. And it felt so good. I felt so happy and grateful. I know I won’t remember all of it now, it’s been almost 24 hours since that car ride. But I am going to try. Here I go.
Which actually reminds me…countdown to 1D at the Rose Bowl: 161 days!! Yee!!! courtslosinit get excited!!
I’m so fucking excited. I might punch someone in the face.
The last episode is literally going to be part of my every day conversation for the rest of my life.
That needs to become a thing in fandom.
Every time someone freaks out over a spoiler the response should be “Calm down Psycho”
I’m basically going to say it to everyone about everything. Also, look at my cute donut. NomNomNom.
Ever since the poster incident, I stopped posting personal things on here. I just didn’t want to open myself up to criticism or more backlash. It’s been almost a year of just keeping my blog fandom only. But honestly, there are times like tonight when I just want to write my feelings out. Get support from people that I don’t have to hide things from. I had a great weekend and a not too bad day today. But here I sit at 11pm alone at home filled with sadness. And it’s the same sadness that has filled my heart for two years now. And I know how to fix it. But it’s overwhelming. And I keep failing. And my dreams keep seeming father and farther away because of it. The days slip by and I don’t work to make any progress. It’s already almost the middle of March. I know I just need to take it all one day at a time. The days start good… and then as it goes on it’s easier to talk myself into failure. When will the cycle stop? Why is this so hard?
Nickname: CourtHeight: 5’6
Relationship status: Married
Birthday: February 7th
Favorite color: Black
Favorite singer/band: Jason Mraz/HIM
Last song listened: Alive - Empire of the Sun
Last movie watched: Manhunter
Favorite book: Christine by Stephen King
Currently reading: The Transgender Child, rereading Mockingjay and my Law and Ethics book for school
Siblings?: 1 younger brother, Sean
Pets?: One Jack Russell Terrier Mix, Phyllis
Best school subject: English, Art, Recess
Mac or PC?: Mac… we are a Mac family.
Cell phone type: iphone
Current shirt color: blue
Gamer?: not really
Day or night?: Night
Summer or winter?: ehhh…. Fall.
Most-visited website: Tumblr or FB
Celebrity crushes: Currently… Harry Styles, Jared Padalecki, Ville Valo
Got my belated Christmas gift from Courtney and it is AMAZING!! She made her own stencils and painted this! I especially love the way Kurt turned out! :)
You.Are.Welcome! I’m just glad I knew you would like it. I’m pretty proud of it.