First night of the session:
Last night of the session:
This year I am THANKFUL for…
1. My Amazing Husband Gary. He is my rock. He inspires me everyday to be a better person. His love for me keeps me going during the tough times. He is my best friend and I love him with everything that I am. I am so, so thankful that I have gotten to spend the last ten and a half years with him, and I can’t wait to spend many, many more.
2. Family. My brother Sean.Sean and I are really close, even though I live 165 miles away. He has had some hard times, but he has pulled himself up and done great things with his life. I love him to death. I am thankful for him, my Mom and the rest of my family.
3. My Awesome Friends. This photo represents only a few of the incredible people that I call my friends. People who accept me, celebrate with me, and stand beside me. I love them all dearly, and my life wouldn’t be half as wonderful without them. I am thankful for all of my lovely friends.
4. My Involvement with LGBT Activism. San Diego has an amazing LGBT community. I am so glad that I found my place helping and playing in the community. Everyone I have met and worked with has been so positive and inspiring. I will not stop fighting, and I am so glad I get to fight along side them. I am thankful for the LGBT community.
5. Being Alive. My health. Even though I have gained a lot of weight this year, I know what I have to do to turn it around and I am actively making changes. I have no diseases, disorders or illnesses. All of my body parts works, I can walk. I can see. I can hear. I can breathe. I am thankful for being alive.
6. Music. Music gets me through my day. Lyrics inspire me. Going to see an artist or band perform is the ultimate experience for me. I am thankful that I have gotten to see so many of my favorite artists (Jason Mraz) this year, and that I can listen to good tunes whenever I want.
7. Obama. Election season was stressful on all of us. I am so very, very thankful to be living in the United States with Barack Obama re-elected our president. I had nightmares about what would have happened if he had lost.
8. Camp Aranu’tiq. I am so thankful to everyone at camp, especially Nick for giving me a chance and letting me being a counselor this past summer. Working with transgender youth gave me a new passion and appreciation for my involvement in the community. I found a direction that I want to go with my career. I know I want to work with transgender kids and their families. And now as I apply to graduate school, I am so thankful for all the kids and staff at camp for changing my life.
On the last day of summer camp, everyone say on the floor in the dining hall after breakfast. Nick, the director, stood in front of us and explained that he knew it was going to be hard going back home. And that often people do not understand the process of transitioning or even being transgender. It will be hard not to be at camp around everyone so accepting. A place where you don’t have to hide who you really are. Then we all passed around a ball of blue yarn, wrapping it around our wrist a few times before passing it on to the next person. After everyone had some yarn, we all raised our hands to see that everyone was connected by the yarn. Nick then explained that if anyone is ever feeling down or sad, just remember that camp has connected us. And even after camp we are connected. And the yarn around your wrist is a reminder that there is a whole group of people who love and support you.
It’s just a piece of string, but it’s priceless to me. And I will wear it on my wrist until it disintegrates off.
Happy day. The scale did not go down today, but it has every other day this week. I feel that I am retaining water in my fingers, so when I get home from the doctor (vaccination before camp), I am going to take a water pill. I am working on my kitchen today. I have all of this wonderful retro 50’s diner decor that I have never used and have never taken the time to put out. Visiting my Mamaw inspired me to use it. She has all of this great 70’s decor and kitchen items, and she uses them everyday and it’s just wonderful. So that’s what I am doing today. It’s also Rick’s birthday so I am going to bake him cupcakes before his party tonight. Love.
I am taking a rest from the gym today, I have done really good this week. Not sure if I will hit 255 lbs by next Friday, but I should be close and that’s good enough for me. 262.2 lbs today. WITH water retention.
This weekend I will be inventorying (is that a word?) all my stuff I need for camp, and then next week I will go shopping for what I need. So excited. One week until camp. Can’t wait.
I just submitted two applications for Summer Camp positions. I have two more I want to apply to. All ate YMCA affiliated. I worked at the YMCA for 2 years. I hope that helps my chances. I feel so stupid when it asks me what skills I have that are good for summer camp, I don’t know what to say. I guess I could lie. I’m not good at sports, but I can play. I’m not good at singing, but I can lead group songs. I’ve never done drama before, but I’ve always wanted to try. We will see what happens. I want this really badly.