Weight Loss Update
So, I was going to update last Friday but I woke up to my monthly gift from Mother Nature, thanks bitch. So I skipped the weigh in, and basically skipped life for the next 5 days. I remembered what my doctor had said about staying away from sugar and salt during my PMS/period and I did okay. I did make myself a few brownies in a mug… But I mostly ate at home and when I didn’t I made good choices. I didn’t exercise much though.
So I weighed in this morning, 3 weeks since my “starting” weigh in, which was exactly my original starting weight. I am pleased with the results. I know if I were exercising more this past week it might have been lower. My birthday is on February 7, and I would like to be down to 274 by then. That’s my first short term goal.
My last appointment with my Nutritional Coach was on December 28, so about a week and a half ago. I see her again on Friday. I am going to make my meeting days, my weigh in days. I was so upset on December 28th, because when I weighed in I had hit… the weight that scared me so bad. My original starting weight. I could not believe that I had gained every single pound I had lost in 2011, back. It really shattered me. But I am glad that I had my meeting right after that. I came home feeling like this is going to get better and I can do this. It’s all in the mind. And even though I am starting, again, at my original starting weight, I am done beating myself up. Can only move forward from here.
I made a weekly workout schedule - M+W - Yoga, T+Th - Kickboxing, F - Hiking or walking, and Saturday is walking with my friend Jennifer at the bay. I will probably switch things around as I go, but for now this works. I did yoga yesterday for the first time in probably over a year. Oh. My. God. My arms are so sore, I was sweating so bad. Can’t wait for tomorrow to do it again!
I have been cooking almost every day and eating almost 100% clean, which hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be.
I will do another weight loss update on Friday after my meeting. Crossing my fingers for a loss, but if I don’t screw things up, there will be.
I always feel motivated and inspired after watching these documentaries about food and the diet industry. I feel motived already, but I decided to turn on this one I have not seen yet, ‘Hungry for Change’. The food industry is so messed up. I am glad that I have realized this now and can make the changes in my life…. that will save my life.
It’s 12:45am and I am about to go to bed, I have been waiting for this new pumpkin bar recipe I am trying to come out of the oven and it just did. But anyway…
I started last Friday seeing a “Nutritional Coach”. I decided not to go through my doctor’s office because they wanted me to take group weight management classes… um… for someone with social anxiety that revolves around their weight, that is a death sentence. So I looked someone else up and here I am. Friday was my first official meeting with her and I left feeling very happy and excited for the future. We talked about the importance of leafy greens and how we can add them into our everyday meals. She even gave me a special leafy greens cookbook. I really like her approach to everything because she knows that there are emotions involved with food and bad habits. She believes everything needs to be fun and we need to be happy. And since I have left, I have not stressed about food. She told me to chew slowly, and chew each bite at least 20 times. And when I am full, it’s ok to stop and not finish everything on my plate. That is something that I am so bad at. I feel like I don’t want to waste any food. So many tips to help me from doing that. I have been in the kitchen everyday cooking, and also making sure that my kitchen is clean. I used to stress about the kitchen all the time. I hated doing the dishes and they would pile up. I would feel overwhelmed cooking and so I wouldn’t. All these bad habits that I have to work on in order to have a healthy relationship with food. Because even though I want weight loss, there is so much more to it. So, so much more. So I am taking baby steps.
One of the other things she is helping me work on is how to get my exercise in everyday. I told her about the gym and how it causes me anxiety now, and she said thats ok then don’t go. So I am on a mission to find exercise that I enjoy. I told her that I love to be outdoors. I am going to look up some places to hike around San Diego and try them out. I do miss TKB classes, and maybe one day I will go back. But for now, I am going to explore other options and see what I like.
It might just look like some left over pieces of eaten French toast… But to someone with the “clean your plate” mentality and someone who is trying hard to have a healthy relationship with food, it’s a big step in the right direction. I don’t have to clean my plate. When my body is full, it’s okay to stop.
Ah, I did not forget. It has just taken two full days to get my shit together as my Laptop is full and can’t record any new video or pictures.
Here are my NEW “Starting Weight Pictures”. I felt weird taking these again since I have taken them in the past.. Whatever. That’s in the past. This is now. Weight at weigh-in yesterday morning was 278.0. Only 11.5bs away from my highest weight of 289.5. Let the new journey begin.
My weight was going up and up last week. I was getting really stressed over it, but not actively doing anything to change it. But this weekend I did. I have been really concentrating on eating Clean, no fast food. Eating a variety of foods, lots of fruits and veggies and only drinking water. My weight has been going down the last 3 days. It feels good to step on that scale and see the number go down from the day before. It really motivates you to keep going. I just bought myself two new pairs of pants and a pair of shorts. They fit, but they are a little tight. I just want them to fit. Ugh. So I am gonna keep working and staying positive. Thinking of myself as a friend or a loved one, I would want my loved one to eat healthy and take care of them self. So that is what I will continue to do.
Tomorrow two of my friends are coming down to hang out. Excited. We are gonna watch Glee and go to the beach. Gotta do a once over and make sure the house is clean.
Finally. Day 5. The effin’ scale went down. Thank you Grilled Cheesus. It’s still up from Monday’s weigh in, but it’s down from yesterday. It seemed like it was up every day. Frustrating for your first week back on track. But I didn’t give up. What did I do yesterday that was different, oh… worked out. Ate clean all day (did have one treat at the end of the day). Sugar withdrawls are hard. I keep giving in to the cravings. I just need to get through it.
I have a lot to do today, so I intend to keep pretty active. But I am still going to do the 30 day shred DVD right now before I do anything else.
Looking at the date today…. when is my period coming? That could shake things up with the scale too. I definitely feel PMS-y. Hmmmmmmmm.